The hardest part.

Sometimes we think the hardest part of loving another human being, is when they don't give that love back to you. Sure, it's not easy, loving someone who doesn't care as much-or in some cases at all-for you. When you spend months,years,or decades in a relationship giving all you have,heart and soul (not to mention that part of your life you will never be reimbursed for) and they take everything you have to give, and stomp on it it really really sucks. Being faced with the fact that nothing you can do will ever make this person change, or love you the way you love them, or even care just a little bit about you, can make you feel like the world has ended. Your heart will break,and chances are pretty good you're gonna spend some time crying. You will feel empty for awhile, and you are perfectly justified in doing so-I mean, come on!!!!-You just poured yourself out completely, wasted your time on something that unknown to you was non-existent. Yup, it sucks for a minute, and it feels like the hardest thing you will ever go through.
BUT IT'S NOT!!!!!!!
It may be slightly difficult to believe that anything could be harder than that, but it's true.
The hardest thing you will ever do is actually love someone with everything you have and experience them loving you back just as hard, and as loyal as you love them. When they know they hold your heart in their hands, and they take special precaution not to squeeze too hard.The last thing in the world they want is to see you hurt, let alone be the one who does the hurting. It's hard when you want to take everything bad, feelings or actual pain from someone, when you want to erase anything in their life that caused bad feelings, and you are unable to do so.It is even more difficult when they want to do the same for you. Then there are those times, in the course of building your life together something bad will effect the both of you, and you fight over who gets to take the bad from who,who gets to be sheltered, and who will do the sheltering, because you both want to bear the burden for the other. When you fight, and go to bed that night with everything finally taken care of, but wonder if maybe you shouldn't have said that one little thing, and will they remember that part or the part where you ernestly apologized for your actions and words?
When you start paying attention to your actions and words towards another human being because you love them so much you want to be the last person to even come close to hurting them, it's hard. When you realize the fight you are having is not his or her fault, but a combination of a need to protect each other, and a way to convey anger without hurt, it gets hard.
To give and receive the same amount of love, trust, and companionship is a very difficult thing to deal with-although it should be the easiest, and most comfortable. No matter how difficult it may be though, it is also the best and rewarding thing you will ever go through.